i should write somin

i should write somin... i know i shld.. im just too busy.. there is no time.. tho lots of things to write about.. in time... come xmas.. maybe...

the door was opened contd..

"its not what it looks like" he said.

It's not, it cant be.

But it is. It is him

My brother, my love, 

in the bed,

the bed i crave to be in

in the arms,

the arms i longed to hold me

a spree of emotions filled me

pain, rage, fear , hate..

Crazy hate

murderous hate

blinded by the hate 

i rushed at them

striking out blinding

at whoever

what ever

both of them

and myself all at the same time

But my bones were too soft

my punches nothing but

candy floss next to his hard body

i need something heavy

something strong,

the horse...

there by the bed,

a porcelain horse

that will do

lifting it with all my might

bringing it down towards them

the horse cracked

But that didnt stop me

again and again i brought it down

bringing it down towards them

It didnt matter who i was hitting

i wanted to get them both

i was screaming at them now

filled with so much rage

i felt powerful

so powerful. and strong

yes, strong

now there are gonna get it

so blinded by rage i was

i did not see the horse had broke 

broken into two with sharp edges

edges so sharp its drove trough them easily

there was bloody every were now

all over the once beautiful

but still i could not see

striking out blindly till there was nothing left in me

till i was drained of my power,

my rage, my hate..

tired i left the bed

the room, the house

into the dark

wherever

somewhere

anywhere

who cares

no one cares..

especially not me..

The door was open..

ok sometimes a poem or somethings starts brewing in my head and untill i get it down, it remains there, i dont know where the inspiration comes from. it just does. Now i have decided to share. Hope you enjoy:

I strolled out into his gates,

There was no one there.

not a soul insight

No one to stop me.

i walked towards the doors

i ran my hands across the smooth mahogany doors

i knocked 1ce, no answer

knocked again 2ce for emphases.

still nothing

i turned the handle

the door was open

stepping in through the doors

i called out his name.

it echoed into the air

nothing, not a sound

taking a few more steps

i looked about. the receptions

filled with fine woodwork

paintings and tapestry

it was all a work of art

i climbed up spiral stairs

taking it two at a time

excited that i was in his house

a place he called home

snooping around a bit

i walked on tip toes

silently searching for his room

not wanting to announce my presence yet

maybe i could surprise him in bed.

Five rooms later i finally found his room.

it was filled with his scent

that musky rain forest scent i had come to love

i swirled around his room, exhilarated.

My whole body filled with bliss

Enjoying every moment of my discoveries

i turn towards his bed.

How massive it was.

Large enough for a family of ten.

I imagine it would be our family

wife, husband and an army of kids

giggling i walked towards the bed

There lies my man,

my love, my prince

o how i loved him

and he me,

Closer now to the bed

he wasn't alone

who is this

it cant be

no, it mustn't

there lies my love

but in his arms..

in his arms...

there lay my brother

damn, the door was open..........

Fyi i dont have a brother hence this is purely fictional what do you think?

Success!¬! Ha!! in ur face!!

Ah yes, sweet sweet success! A small one but its a great feel.

I know things in london r expensive but come on to charge £20 to change a lock is rediculous, especially from a carpenter that tends to be rather incompetent. Nehoo i was like i got a fiver for him and if he didnt want it he should buzz off, he was like fine, he'll go but when i call him back,(he was so certain i would), that it would be £30.

I'm like piss off man and i went to the room, got out the tool box that had been collecting dust these past years, cleaned them up and got down to business.

Ok so i only had a flat and star screwdriver, a tape rule, a scissor and a hammer. BUT i was determined. And as far as i was concern that was good enough.

I took out the broken lock, that was easy, taking things apart is a hobby, ask my mum, my pet name as a kid was baseje (means destroyer in yoruba) teehee, what can i say, its fun. Nehoo,

i took out the old lock, and started installing the new one. NB those who know me know i NEVER, read the instructions. NEVER!! So dudish im sure but u know wot, dts just me.

Now installing the new lock should have been easy but.. with those miserably tools it took me 2hrs. but lordy i did it and thats all it cost me, 2hrs, and some swollen biceps which i have to go ice up now..(wailing) oooooo my aching  biceps...lol

Preach it rite!

Yes i come again to rant.. afterall thats wot a blog is for isnt it? 

Today its all about the preachers and pastors that have deduced their own view of the Bible and labeled every Tom, dick and harry that do not follow their strict ideology of Christianity a sinner.

Dont get me wrong we are all sinners but the extent to which these pastors portray our sins is a bit...or rather a lot harsh...

On my way back home from .... i want t o say skl but i cant be sure.. nehoo on my way back from wherever.. a man on the street was calling out.."Jesus loves you! He cares about you, you need to stop sinning, stop smoking and drinking and stop sexual immoralities.." ok yeah Jesus loves us and he frowns upon fornication greatly but honestly stop drinking? helloooo....from my knowledge of the Bible i think it was..." he broke bread, and drank wine..." also he said to be merry innit?  i think it was mentioned also that it was ok to drink but to drink responsibly.. innit? so why do theses preachers say it wrong to drink? Frankly IMHO i think the lord recognizes the need of alcohol and it shld be a personal choice as to if ones drinks or not.

And as for smoking.... come on.... really? Them Bible says no smoking? i dont thin it was even implied. I doubt there is anything wrong with smoking apart from the fact that one is slowly killing his/herself but hey... its their choose...and no one shld hold it against them.

Fornication?? lol i know better than to talk about this topic. its U and your God o!

Imposing relatives

This is 1 topic that really irks me. as a Nigerian 1s family will definitely be large..hell my paternal grand dad had 16 wives not counting his concubines. I probably have relatives in every freaking country ok maybe not country.. lets say continent... i don't really mind them.. until...
They want something... AND lordy do they always do... if it isnt some money, its a ride just around the corner or drop this off for me.. its on your way or pick this up for me... so what if its on my way? what do i care? It aint my business? so why are you making it so? ok, ok fine.. i'll give.. i'll help you but only this time... big mistake.. there is never a"only this time" before you know it they'd be running circles round you.. you wanna get out but guess wot? the doors blocked by yet another vulture..oops i mean relative, that wants something.
I never associated with a relative more than required.. i am so glad im the 2nd child cos lord knows if i was the 1st they'd really hate me..
Imagine sitting on a couch watching the latest episode of bleac or desperate housewives and then your fone starts to ring and its 1 of them... the time is 7:10pm and you wonder why the call as you have just spoken to them like 30mins ago..
guess what she wants? For you to leave the comfort of your house get on a train not in london no no no but head on outside london meet her at the station and head back to london... not back home... no no no.. back to her place to check if she switched off the iron...so ok no probs. i'll go.. tho its late.. its unsafe...and you dont exactly know where you are going.. well we gotta be a good spot yeah? i'll find my way... i did.. i got there... guess what? the iron was off! dang what a waste of my time... darn! imposing relatives

On my way..

I might be crawling but man i do know i'm definitely on my way where ever im going and want to be. might take a while bu ti aint bothere.. no sirrree.. as long as i get there n get there right..

What Guys wants.. the basics

Yeah i know im a girl n probably cannot really say what a guys wants.. but i think i can give it a go.. i've read alot, observed a lot and asked a lot of questiosns hope u guys corect me if i go wrong somewhere..

So first up..

Respect... Maybe its an ego thing but men.. 1st up u gotta respect a guy... research show that they put it first than love.. which i guess is the basic diff btw guys n girls. A man needs to be respected by the one woman who has the power to make him go all mushy cos if he isnt respected by her he's gonna feel at worlds ends, insecure, (especialy in fornt of his mates) and like a pu**y. Its a guy thing, girls, dont try ti understand.

Next up.. a mothers touch.. the saying boys will be boys is so true.. cos really they never actually grow. yeah the mature and become men.. but that boyness is still there and will always be there so there for they most always want a girl who treat them like their baby and yet still a man... complicated yeah? but hey we've been doin it for a while and we still can.. just find the balance.

NO 3. Love.. funny it should be third for them and 1st for us but thats how its is girl. The gfood thing is its on the same plain now...thee fact is if your good in the 1st 2 he'll know you love him already.

That wonder woman.
they may tell you they don like a working woman but its not true.. they love the fact that u've got a job, him, a family and you keep it all togerther and look good doing it. no come on.. tell me you guys wont mind a high earning powerful chic that only you have the power and right s to make her go crazy? yeah i can see the ideas runing tru ur heads already...lol

A place in your life...a man needs to know that he has this special place in your life that no other person can feel. he needs to know that you need him. I can even go as far to say that he neds to know that there are some things you cant do without him..i dont mean for you to be entirely dependent on him.. o no no no dts a serious no no.. u just become rather needy in his eyes and you' loose all your charm.
this is just the basic ladies.. boys if im wrong just let me know....

What a girl wants the basics

Ok since my birth i've been a girl and @ twenty somin(we dont all really need 2 know my age now do we? lol) i think i know what girls want. so 4 all u guys that are clueless open ur eyes and read but dont just read.. try it.. who know ur relationship cld blossom.. if it doest.. i'll be glad if not well...lets just say it wldnt ave worked out anyway...so on to it
what a girls wants...
A girls most utmost desire is to me loved. this is actually the utmost desire of all being.
Loving a girl is not just telling her "I love u" no, cos not, anybody can say dt. If u love her show it dammit!

how u say? simple... take note of wot she loves 2 do, her interests, i need her aspiration e.t.c Let her know ur interested in it cos she is.. it doesnt mean ur whipped tho ur friends will probably tell u so but shld u be listening 2 thos friends i mean they are single arent they?

Secondly just as a man desire respect so does a girl. She aint a maid,just a sex partner, or ur mum...she can be all those things 4 u sure but thats 4 her to choose to. to be frank..if u love her and she knows it she wont hesitate to be all these things actually. cos she knows u love her by ur showing it and she wants to show she loves u back too. No matter wot she is ur equal and shld be treated as such


Thirdly ooo we like gifts. it doesnt ace 2 be expensive just totful trust me if a girl is mor concerend by d cost she's vain and u shld get rid of her(sori girls but i gotta be real)

No 4. Honestly. come on no1 loves to be lied 2 why wld u thikn dt she does? Most guys are of the impression dt girls love being lied 2.. but dont u think ur feeding them they wrong thing just so they cld fall 4 u? And when u break their heart ur all like "well, i had 2 do wot i had 2 do" aint dt a tad selfish?

Fifth: faithfulness... hey dis doesnt mean ur less of a man.. but u know if u truly love a girl u'd be faithful dont give me dt ur a man crap it doesnt fly...we are not saying u cant check out other chics come we check out guys too.. we r humans but u dont see us chasing them around 4 a quicky now do u?
and last but not the least: communicate.. u guys all know dt girls love 2 talk so if u know dis y do u keep compliang? we cant help it.. we are natural sharers. we love to share especially wit out man so if u cant take the sharing better be outta there man cos after we share we expect u 2 do d same 2.. really wot so hard in telling ur girl bout ur day?
This is the bacis of what a girl want s boy trust me if u can get this rite... ur girl will never want to leave unless she doesnt love u and if she doesnt u shld bother wit this cos it just aint gonna work mate sori...lol

Boys and girls

Rite.. been meaning to do this but i've been lazy
my friend and fellow blogger finally got me off my lazy but or rather settled me into it so i can finally write this down...
Boys..
this post wont ask wot guys use are, o no ,im sure God made them for a reason, even though no one on earth seem to know what the *bleep* that is ,but as sure as God doesn't make any mistake they have their reason for being.
That granted their attitude and behavior is a another matter to be dealt with..
Guys are always like they are who they are but honestly is it really how you were made or how you were brought up? what you were made to believe by your parent(especially your mum yes you know its the truth if not for her you wouldn't be so pompous and egocentric).
Guys have been brought up to believe they are Gods gift to the world come on really do you still think you are?
Why would you think that? After all thats said and done @ the end of the day you'll run into the arms of a woman either you mum or a gf/wife but still a woman like babies you all are'
invalids.
i read a magazine recently and it claims most of what a guy wants is just to have sex and eat but im of the impression its just a cover up for how attached they can really get...
if its all about sex why dont you all just pay hookers instead of having a gf or wife that you have to spend a lot more money on? Y'all know it'll be a lot cheaper..
And all this sowing of wilds oats drifting from girl to girl whats the point of it? isnt it egotism? a fear of being trapped? And the none cooking bit. Refuse to learn to cook why? cause its a woman job. who the *bleep* said that? Where was it written?
God created us to HELP, that is to assist not take the burnt of everything!
Things are changing really fast guys and if you dont want to become obsolete..
and thats quite possible you know.The bulk of your value is in your sperm and considering each release over a million @ a go and sperm banks are getting more popular and accepted you all better start facing the truth and recognise.
You might call me femnist but i think myself more of a realist and Boy this is the reality of things.
Girls...
I'm sick and tired of all you all felling weak and feeble! For crying out loud y'all are some much better than that... most of us were brought up to think the man is all powerful and mighty but its a 50/50 thing and if you cant see that now im so sorry for you..
Please please please dont make yourself a doormat for some boy just cos he said he loves you.. they say they dont always mean it. Ok fine you love him and he says he loves you but come not dt does not give him the rite 2 treat you like crap! Chic that aint love!
Get off your butt girl and stop waiting for him to buy you this and buy you that... in his mind he'll be think its his right 2 get what he wants and do what he wants with you... dt wot u want honey? really?
And yes you can be by yourself and be happy! true we all need some1 but come on that doesn't mean yoi'll die without some1! thats no reason to go drinking izol or dettol(o yes i know a few who did.. sad innit?) but seriously a lot of us need to build self confidence!
weo so lack it and that what the boys use to play us! if you have a large dozage of self confidence nobody can tell you BS.
conclucion
i still intend to write more on both boys and girls and the male- female interaction.. all i ask of you readers is be real as your leaving a comment. be real, factual and honest...